CHAPTER 8: Malpas

CHAPTER 8: malpas.

once more time went by.
jim took over the myspace for a while and it was nice to talk to him
although he didn't seem to reply as much as jarvey.

by march i realised they had played no more shows since their christmas one.
i wasn't the only envy fan starting to worry.

in around april time i spoke to ali on facebook.
he told me they were having problems writing the new album and that they were taking a break
he also told me he had started a solo act.

i knew there and then it was the end.

the question hung in the air for a long time,
was this the end of envy?

it was one day in july when my biggest fear was confirmed.
i was so busy packing for the london journey i was about to leave for but i had just enough time to check facebook.

it was rhinanon that told me first.

i went straight to the website and was faced with a note from envy.
they had indeed broke up.
their record comany had dropped them, and i guess they figured there wasnt much point continuing.

i remember being on the coach that night listening to shipwrecked and sobbing.
dale, my boyfriend took me in his arms and told me it would all be okay........
but i knew deep down it was the end of an era.

however, not quite the end.
ali didn't stay solo for much longer and their was new hope in his new band malpas.
i was even more delighted when i went to malpas's myspace to learn that jim was the drummer.

i had a brand new hope in malpas,
a new hope in these beautiful new songs,
and a new hope of seeing ali and jim once more.

but two new faces replaced jarvey and mark.
two interesting faces be it so,
faces i am sure i will learn to love in time

but in the back of my mind is this great sadness
this grieving.
envy are gone, and although i still have two friends there,
two of them are gone,
and i fear i will never see them again.

i will never forget the times i spent with envy,
i will never forget jarvey's warming messages
and i certainly will never forget mark,
i never felt so special, so loved, so happy in my life as i did around those four,

i doubt i will ever feel that way again

wether malpas will be a dawn of a new exciting era for me, i do not know,
i hope so.
but one thing is for sure,
jarvey, mark, ali and jim,
i will never forget you.
i will never forget how you made me feel,
i will never forget how much you made me smile,
i will never forget the incredable music i was honored to have whitnessed
and no matter where we go, what we do in life,
wether we meet again, or go our seperate ways,
you will always be in my heart
for eternity...........

THE END............or is it??